Too late for a sorry

How do I say sorry?

I find it hard to say,

I see it written,

We’ll never be the same.

How I wish for the things to fall back,

I know our life won’t be back on the track,

And I know, it was all my mistake,

This smile I have, no longer can I fake,

I need to find a window,

To crawl out of my misery,

And if I don’t find you,

Have mercy and just kill me.

How do I say sorry?

How do I make it right?

It plagues my sunshine,

And putrefies my nights.

And every moment I live,

I breathe in my death,

If you don’t trust me,

Come kiss me feel my breath,

I need to find a road,

To drive away from pain,

And if I don’t reach you,

Wipe me like a stain.

Yes I am sorry,

But words I fail to say,

Your angry eyes,

Bury me in my shame,

I try to find,

A way to plead,

A way to die,

Is all that I need,

A way to say,

How sorry I feel,

A way to die,

Yes, I really need.