Cold Betrayal

I waited in rain, I waited in snow,

I waited for you, but the answer was no,

The answer was no, you didn’t even see,

As I waited watching, the time began to grow,

And as time grew on, making me old,

I waited for you to come and scold,

To show me my fault, as I froze to death,

But you left me out, dead and cold.

You didn’t listen to me, knocking on your door,

Baby you had me in, many times before,

What did I do, to make you change the locks?

It snowed grief on me; I froze in the shock,

I tried to decipher, but couldn’t contemplate,

I sank under snow, cursing my wretched fate,

No matter how loud, I tried to call you out,

Warming by the fire, you didn’t hear my shouts.

The night disappeared, in a day shiny bright,

The sun danced merrily, showering the light,

The snow melted out, but you didn’t thaw,

You left me dying sorry, for an unknown flaw,

I saw it; realised, with tears in my eyes,

As you stepped over me; with him by your side.

तलाश!!

तेरी तलाश में, भटकता फिरा,
तेरे ही अक्स को, मै ढूँढता रहा,
न जाने कितने ज़ख्म है मिले,
न जाने कितने घाव है सिले,
न जाने कितनी ठोकरे पड़ी,
मै सब सह गया, जाना जो तुम मिले!

तेरी ही चाहतो, को खोजता रहा,
तुझे ही ख़्वाबों में, मै सोचता रहा,
न जाने कितनी, बार मै जला,
कभी बर्फ, कभी अंगार पे चला,
न जाने कितनी जिल्लते सही,
जाना जो तुम मिले, तो सब लगे भला!

न जाने कितनी बार मै मरा,
न जाने कितनी बार मै जिया,
न जाने कितनी बार इश्क के,
जाल में फसा, ज़हर पी लिया,
इस दिल को मेरे, बाज़ार कर दिया,
जिस को मिला, वो खेल के गया,
ये टूट-फूट के भी है धड़क रहा,
तेरे ही साथ को था ये तरस रहा!

तेरे ही इश्क को, ये पूजता रहा,
तेरी ही रूह को, ये ढूँढता रहा,
न जाने कितनी बार मै गिरा,
कहने लगा मुझे, जहाँ सिरफिरा,
न जाने कितनी मिन्नतें करी,
जो तुम मिल गए, तो बस मै सिर्फ तेरा!

My parents, My gods

I still remember when I was wrong,

You were always there to set me right,

I think of time when I had a fall,

You came running at my distress call,

When I thought that the world hated me,

You were there to shower your love,

And I will say it a million times,

I love you dad, I love you mom, and I thank the gods above.

The world pushed me in the depth to drown,

I never sunk because you were holding on,

And when the waves rose high,

You lifted me up in the air,

You gave me ray of hope,

Through the clouds of despair,

And when it rained sad,

An umbrella you became,

Protecting the child within me,

From the drops of that pain,

When my sky burned,

You came as a breeze,

When I was melting down,

Your care made me freeze,

And when I was buried,

Under that frigid snow,

Someone kept me warm,

You were the one; I know.

 

I still remember when I lost my smile,

You were always there to make me laugh,

When I looked at you with watery eyes,

You stuck to me soaking up all that is rough,

And yes I know how much I may try,

I can never return all that of your love,

Indebted is my life to you,

I love you mom, I love you dad, and you’re my god above.

The Negativity called life

"Written at height of my depressive phase...found it hiding in an old notebook of mine."

Sensing all the negative around me,

Feeling all the hatred surround me,

Seeing the friends betraying, hounds me,

Stabbers and bitchers have found me,

In this world of dark, of glum and sad,

I can’t find good, it all seems bad,

And what was bad seems to be getting worse,

Is my life totally plagued and cursed?

Why can’t I find, a truthful soul?

A shadow that can stay all true,

In this place; no love, just hate,

I try to find a piece of shade,

And I can’t blame you my god,

You’ve always failed, you’ve always lost,

And since the day, you created us,

You’ve been paying with blood the cost.