The Burden

‘Can you decode the pain I hide?

The tears I shed, in darkness alone,

Can you not sense, my smiles are weak?

The reason I crumble like a stone

Like a stone whose bore the brunt of fear,

And the frigidness of the world’s icy stares,

Like those rocks getting punched by the waves,

Rising high from the sea of despair?

Derailed

Is it the price of love that I am paying?

Paying really bad,

I was going straight for my station,

You derailed me from track,

It was you, who broke the coupling,

You were the cause of hurt,

But you still hold me as guilty,

Claim that you are just,

It’s not true,

You know it,

You lie but,

Your eyes show it.

I am facing the world but am losing,

Losing the grip on self,

You played me till you bored out,

Dumped me on a shelf,

It was you, who ended the story,

Tore it up in shreds,

Scattered in dirt all pearls of laughter,

I had roped in thread,

I loved you,

You know it,

I still do,

I show it.

But you never did, and never will,

Your love was all fake, and I was just a fling,

I should have known, but I didn’t read,

I still love you, don’t know why? But I will never plead,

Cause you won’t understand, what love really is,

You are just a living being, with nothing living in,

And I will go on paying, the price of love I wove,

My life’s derailed from the track; I see darkness with no hope.

When friends betray

I stand alone,

I am sinking deep,

And what’s more sad,

I have none to weep,

I cry alone,

I am buried in trench,

My eyes outpour,

I am all so drenched.

Dirty, stinking souls around me,

Plaguing my life to the core,

Friends who tell me to battle the waves,

But will never help me to shore.

I wish I could go,

Back to the days of love,

True and pure hearts around,

Everyone was friend,

Everyone was true,

Such friends cannot be found.

But alas I knew,

It couldn’t happen true,

Friends are what I will miss all time,

So many times,

I have seen my tears hit the dust,

I wish I was blind.

I spread my hands,

I pray to the god,

Give me someone to whom I may talk,

I look at the door,

It’s beginning to creak,

Will it open and in someone walk?

My Lover, My Savior

I was a shallow soul,

Wandering without a goal,

Running behind the pretty faces.

It took me a while,

It swept away my smiles,

And pushed me into empty spaces.

I tried to crawl out,

But I couldn’t find a way,

Thinking that I am doomed,

I was ready to stay.

When I heard your voice calling out my name,

I could see the light at the end of my shame,

I fought and killed the darkness hidden deep inside,

I heard your voice bringing me back to the life.

I bled but I didn’t curse,

I had seen events worse,

And now I was a believer.

You know not what you’ve done,

You had my fortunes turned,

And now I was thinking deeper.

Now that I’ve found you out,

I would never let you go,

I will love keep you safe,

Even if you answer ‘no’.

No I will never find anyone better than you,

I swear it on my life, I am honestly true,

You made me find the light hidden deep inside,

I heard your voice bringing me back to the life.