Mayhem

I was a fool, you had me follow,

Sucked me and left me hollow,

You had what you craved for,

Broke me and left me to wallow.

You knew I had those feelings,

Brought me on the knees kneeling,

Leaving me nursing a scar,

That will never be healing.

So thanks for all you gave to me,

I’ll take theses scars to my grave to be,

But no, won’t take no more of them,

It’s time for me to unleash mayhem.

I know you will come back,

Try and catch me in your trap,

But guess what the fly I’m not,

Your silken threads will be left to rot.

This time I will be prepared,

Know these scars can’t be repaired,

Will kiss thy venomous lips,

To keep my pain always flared.

So thanks for all you did to me,

This pain I will make you feel,

And no you won’t get to run,

It’s time for love to witness mayhem.

Cold Betrayal

I waited in rain, I waited in snow,

I waited for you, but the answer was no,

The answer was no, you didn’t even see,

As I waited watching, the time began to grow,

And as time grew on, making me old,

I waited for you to come and scold,

To show me my fault, as I froze to death,

But you left me out, dead and cold.

You didn’t listen to me, knocking on your door,

Baby you had me in, many times before,

What did I do, to make you change the locks?

It snowed grief on me; I froze in the shock,

I tried to decipher, but couldn’t contemplate,

I sank under snow, cursing my wretched fate,

No matter how loud, I tried to call you out,

Warming by the fire, you didn’t hear my shouts.

The night disappeared, in a day shiny bright,

The sun danced merrily, showering the light,

The snow melted out, but you didn’t thaw,

You left me dying sorry, for an unknown flaw,

I saw it; realised, with tears in my eyes,

As you stepped over me; with him by your side.

That killer guilt

Shoot! Shoot me down,

Trample me under the elephants,

Cry! I cry aloud,

Bury me under the boiling sand,

Do! Whatever you can,

This guilt is killing me now,

Stab! Me in the heart,

Come and pick this dagger in hand.

Come and pick this dagger in hand.

I! Can do nothing,

Nothing can change the way I behaved,

Put! Me in the jail,

Where I live in dark with head shaved,

Do! Whatever you can,

My eyes drain the oceans out of me,

Drown! Me in the sea,

And don’t hear when I shout to be saved.

Yes don’t hear when I shout to be saved.

You may say you’ve forgiven,

But I know you’ll never do,

I feel my love, so terrible,

Even if you are talking true,

But I don’t mind, yes I don’t mind,

It’s only me to be blamed,

What I said, what I did,

Puts even Lucifer to shame,

Curse me, hit me, and make me cry,

I will face it, I don’t lie,

Nothing can undo what’s done,

Nothing to say just let me die.

Don't leave me, lover

Ask my heart, ask my soul,

How terrible I feel,

Have inflicted such a wound,

Will take ages to heal.

I haven’t been faithful to you,

Promise I won’t do it again,

No name will come on my lips,

Come gale, snow, wind or rain.

Ask my heart, ask my soul,

I only think of you,

Yes I lied, call me a cheat,

But now what I say is true.

Shattered I carry this guilt,

I see your tears wherever I see,

Hold me; give me one more chance,

And never let me free.

I am ready to dance on flames,

To prove that I won’t cheat,

Whatever tracks you leave on sand,

I will follow your feet.

Come and stop my tears that roll,

Save me from dark despair,

One last chance is all I crave,

Just say you love me dear.

Court-Martialed

She ordered fire,

And I just waited,

For the bullets to,

Hit me hard.

I thought I knew her,

I was mistaken,

As the metal ran,

Through my heart.

And she smiled on my face,

Packed my tears and had them parceled,

She quipped what a fool I was,

As she ordered my court martial.

I was a soldier,

She gave me orders,

I risked my life to,

Play my part.

She acted as friend,

Left me so weakened,

I couldn’t fight as,

She broke my heart.

All it took was one mistake,

She had my feelings chopped and parceled,

Forgetting all that I did for her,

She cruelly ordered my court martial.